Well the last post is not really fun, actually.
In fact it cost me couple minutes of crying.
I do try not to cry in the office but hey,
I'm just an ordinary woman who need to cry when it's needed to.
Luckily, it was lunch time so nobody knows I was crying.
And it ruins not only my heart, but also my eyeliner.

Well, yesterday I found it was too hard to bear alone
So I contacted my friend, let's call her 'Phoenix'
And I messaged her while crying
I told her what had happened, and she gave me a surprise
That she is also suffer the same thing, even her bf told her the same thing Omi told me.

Then, I posted yesterday's post
And to my surprise again, my another friend, PopNote, posted a comment
Telling me that he suffer the same thing too.
He and her gf broke up just few days ago, on her gf birthday.
Same thing ruined their relationship: Less Communication.
It just doesn't make sense for me because he is a very calm person
Well, yeah he is not that talkative, but there is a big difference between 'Ignorant' and 'Calm'! Okay, calm down.

And after those crying thing I did, suddenly my stomach aches so much and making me cried again in pain.
It feels like my stomach stretched so much and like my intestines is going to explode, really hurt
So I go home early from work (to Bekasi again)
And well, the doctor told me that I'm suffering typhus symptoms
Pretty surprised me, but I feel pretty much better with all the medications.

And, not only the typhus symptoms,  my heart also feels much better.
Because the Phoenix told me "Hey girl, where's your frickin' power?! Oh come oooon, You're the Storm of X-Men and I'm the Phoenix! Let's bomb this world if we need to!"
And PopNote texted me, "No! A man should never said such a thing to his girlfriend! It's not acceptable! Be strong, Lev."

Maybe I'm wrong.
Well, even though he's really gonna dump me
I'm not that lonely.
Tons of friends is there for me, right? ;)

To my dearest,
Charlesz Omi Haydenburg.

Hi. Hello. :)
Long time no see, Mi. :)
Yes, long time no see. It is really a long time we haven't see each other.
Every each day passed, I just....
I don't know what to say Mi. I don't know what to write.
I'm trying not to cry here, not in the office. Not now.

How lonely I can be, Mi?
How lonesome I can be?
I am lonely. For a fucking two and a half year I am lonely. And then you come.
There gone the loneliness.
But how come, Mi.
How come the loneliness come back and haunting me, again?

Understanding.
Our very first rule in this relationship. And you know how much I love this relationship.
Both of us trying to understand each other business, trying to understand that;
"Dear, I am so busy right now. Please understand."
Yes, we did it Mi.
We did.
Until now.

I know we're both tired Mi.
We're both sick of trying to understand.
Or is it just me?
How lonely I could be, Omi?

The moment we talked for 2 hours back on the phone.
The moment when we agreed that, "We may break up. But if we destined to be,
Then there we'll be back together, again."
Is it time, Mi?
Is it our time to stop?

Funny, Mi.
It's funny when we think about what will happen if we do break up.
When I said "maybe I will not involve myself into a relationship again for a long time."
It's a fact.
It can easily come true.

But when you say "Me too."
It is just a total lie, Mi.
It's a bullshit.
It cannot come fucking true.

I mean, every time we hang out together
There's something, deep inside
Deep in my heart telling me.
"I don't deserve to be with this man."
"He is perfect. So perfect."
"Too perfect for a girl like me."
"I don't deserve to be with him. At all."

What do I have Mi? What do I own??
Nothing, Mi. Nothing.
Personality? I'm damn selfish. Moody. Easily angry.
Good looks? Haha. I know I'm ugly Mi. I AM.
I have nothing.
Compared to you, I just don't fit.
I don't fit in to be your girlfriend.

And why, why your words cannot come true?
Oh God in heaven. Everyone knows you can get another, better, girl in just few hours if you want to.

Back to the time when you said, when I told you I'm not attractive enough for boys,
"Best apples is placed on the top of the tree.
The one who can get the best apple must have courage
Courage to climb, to fall, to try again
Then, then the one can have the best apple.
Best apples placed so high,
Unlike any other bad apples which placed so down low,
So easy to take, and so easy also to dump."

Even the best apple, if they wait for too long.
They will rot, Mi.

And I'm not even a best apple.
I'm just an apple which falls to the ground
Buried beneath old, died leaves.

When my friends saw your photo
When they said "hey, he dated you to cover up his real relationship with other girl"
I know they're joking. (or maybe they are not?)
I'll laugh. Yes, I laughed such a joke.
But deep inside.
It hurts me so bad.
It scars me deeply.

To think how I DON'T deserves you
And how you deserve a better, even better girl
It just ruin me, Mi.
It kills me. Every time.

I'm sorry.
I am so, so sorry.


Deepest love,
Levi.

Okay to tell you I AM ANNOYED WITH YOUR PRESENCE DAMN IT *beeeep*
listen, please you just can REALIZE what is your position and status now???
HELL YES YOU ARE JUST MY EX!! EX BOYFRIEND!!! NOTHING MORE!!!! AAAARRRGGGH
I'm going crazy damn it you son of a pfffftttt ARGH
I heard boys hate to be compared to another boy. Fine, I will do something.
I'll be cruel.

My bf is handsome, you are average.
My bf is tall, you have standard height.
My bf have a good fashion sense, you only have two jackets.
My bf play basketball and other sports, you can only damn singing.
My bf have a good taste, you're just a damn copycat.
My bf IS NOT POSSESSIVE, you ARE CRAZY POSSESSIVE.
My bf never stalk me after we broke up for the first time, you did UNTIL NOW

GET A LIFE YOU DAMN FREAK STALKER EX BOYFRIEND
I'm sick of you.

Heeey my dearest bf Omimimi~ Haha I made this post because I KNOW you are spying my blog XD
Surprise! XD
Just to remind you that MY EXAMS IS DONE FINISHED ALREADY BABYYYY~~~

Heigh anzer banjet hare eneh.
Tadi pagi gue kambuh nyesek *iya yang ngiiik~ ngiiiik~ itu*
Trus tiba2 udah ada 6 misscall di hape gue, semuanya dari si nene Frieta
trus ada 4 sms yg isinya sama semua dari si Rosalinda
pokonya isinya kalo gue dicariin sama bu mut.
Begitu baca sms si Rosalinda, panik alamakjang lah gue.
ADA APAKAH STAF KESISWAAN MENCARI GUA??
GUA SALAH APA???
APAKAH WAKTU GUA *ehm* CABUT KEMAREN KETAHUAN???
(iye gue ngaku gue sering cabut -___- maap mamah)

nah tau2 ada contact nelpon gue
'SMAN 10 Bekasi' MAMUMOMAMPUS GUE DITELPON SAMA SEKOLA.
mati gua, mati gua, mati gua ahoboke *ala mio*
*nichijouuu~~~*
ngeri gue mau ngangkat. tapi kalo gak gua angkat lebih ngeri lagi.
mati gua, mana jam 9 lagi gua udah telat ini mah *IYELAH GOBLOK*

Gue: H, halo??
Seseorang : Levi??
Gue: (mati gua) IYA BU??
Bu Mut: kamu kenapa belum dateng?? Ke sekolah sekarang ya!
Gue: IYA BU SIAP BU BAIK BU *mutusin telp

Gua mandi (mandi koboy setengahnya) cepet cepet terus ganti baju buru2, terus gue turun, nyamber karton susu terus minum langsung dari kartonnya gapake gelas *emak gue gatau tentang hal ini*
Terus gue cabut ke 10, gue mikir, jangan2 gue bakal diketawain gara2 telat terus dipajang di tengah lapangan sambil hormat ke bendera terus dimarah2in sama bu Mut.

*sampe sekolah*
bu Mut: Iya jadi Ibu mau kamu jadi MC yg bahasa Jepang buat acara deklarasi besok :)
gue: *dalem hati* SHIT MEN AHOBOKE!!! (ala mio)

anjeeeeeeeeer gua dipaksa jadi MC anjeeeeeerrrr mana yang bahasa jepun pula. siaul duabelas.
udahgitu dia ngasih ke gue teks line MC yang masih bahasa indonesia. BAHASA INDONESIA MAMEN.
tidak hanya dibabuin jadi MC gue juga dipaksa TRANSLATE.
DIKATA GUA KAMUS KALI YAK.
gue, senpai Rani sama sensei Sofi *cie pengantin baru* mentranslate dari jam 10 dan selesai jam 7 MALEM WATDEFAK ETA TEH.

diforsir hiiiiiiiiiihhhhhh anjeeeerrrr
10 ngutang ke gua ini.

heyyy there Banana Trees, I'm now @ McDonalds AGAIN!! hahahhahahhahaha
so I'm hanging out here with my bff (haha) Frieta, Ade Raja, Edo (who newly being in a relationship) YEAH
Edo's giving us a treat! hahhaha yeaaah too bad I'm not too hungry XDD

MUHAHAHAHAHAH return again after that Late-To-School incident, Banana Trees! XDDDD

Aaaaiiight so, today is 28 February 2012, 19.48 PM, Location: J.CO Donuts & Coffee, Giant H.I
(To tell you the Hot Cappucino Cherry is THE GREATEST.)

Ya know guys, to notice that today is 28th February, that tells me the reality that:

1. The School final exam is going to be held in 12 days, and
2. The NATIONAL EXAM (yeah that b*tch) in about 47 days.

HECK NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO. *explode*



Not that I am not ready yet, but it's just that UNKNOWINGLY I BECAME TOOOO RELAAAAX~~~

HOW COULD THAT HAPPENED?!?!??! oh for God sake Levy this is your turning point in life!

No man, no. It's not that I am too relax or taking it SO easy, it is just that I AM TOO MOODY.
(you guys know moody, right? yeah, moody mood pecker.) <--- lame.

Dear, even though tomorrow I'm having a math test (for example), if I am not in the mood to study or at least, reading the notes I've written, I will not EVEN touch the book. Hell no.
That's what happened when you are a girl, especially when you are in your period. SICK.

(Heck, another insomnia is coming tonight.)

I think I need to go home.

Silly morning now, 8.05, 27th February 2012, and (currently) at McDonald's.
Why the heck you're on McD???
Why don't you just go home???
AREN'T YOU ON YOUR FINAL 3RD F*CKING GRADE????

Yeah, okay. Let me munch this English Muffin first *chomp* *chomp*

Okay.
The Main Reason is : I woke up late. RIGHT. 6.50
And I still acting easy like nothing gonna happen -__-
So, I arrived at school at f*ckin 7.25
And clearly the teachers told me "Just go back home, kid."
Damn, I'll seriously establish a school where the students will start the lesson at 8.
Yeah, forget it. You're just late, nothing much.

Stop acting like this isn't serious, b*tch.

So now I'm at McD, already ordered Sausage McMuffin, Black Tea, and Hash Brown. Gosh.



Yeahahahhahahahha I'm eating happily and blogging now while my friends are there studying english or something fufufuufuf~~~ *oh you....*

GREAT. I don't know whether to laugh or to cry  now XDD silly!!!

Oh by the way the spot is pretty comfy too.

With a comfy seat and a high speed Wi-fi XD.


MUHAHAHA. There's the silly me chomping on the Muffin. Yum.

Okaay waiting for any other crazy things to happen! XD

Woaaaahahahhah ready for another dive-in, Trees? *yeah, like anyone read your post.
Sooo, now the 3rd of February 2012. What do you guys do?

Me? Now I'm hangin' out at the super comfy J.CO Donuts & Coffee @ Giant Harapan Indah!
Really, I just realised the comfortable atmoshpere here, with a super delicious donut I'm chewing now, and sips of Hot Cappucino Cherry (which taste VERY good. It's like drinking liquid Black Forest ya know. haha)

Wooohooo hectic, crazy, fun, tiring, inspiring organization-themed days has ended, viewers!
Oookay it is time for me to say 'Au Revoir' to my organization-themed days.